What Moves Your Heart? How pain and loss can lead us to wholeness

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How do you locate?

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What moves your heart?

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You will not find it in the open spaces you think you crave or

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the in-between moments where all is plain and unperturbed?

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No.

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These do not move your heart the way loss does.

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Welcome to episode two of a lone travelers guide to the divine.

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My name is Amanda Lux, and I'm your host.

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I'm a polarity educator and dream teacher and the creator of the

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elevation hive, school of energy medicine, and community membership for

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empathic healers, seekers and dreams.

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In today's episode, we're exploring what moves the heart and how this can be

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understood in relation to the positive and negative poles of our energy system,

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I will be dissecting this concept.

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If you will, through a poem that I wrote the other night called what

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moves your heart, which I was prompted to write by one of my guides, who

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I met in a pyramid on the moon.

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And no, there's not a pyramid on the actual moon.

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And I didn't go there in my body, not in this reality, but.

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It was a dream and dreams can take you anywhere.

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So there you have it.

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So in a moment, I will be sharing this poem, followed by a brief

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description of how I came to this prompt from the pyramid on the moon.

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And then we will be exploring the polarity principles of the positive and negative

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poles, which are essential to embrace.

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If we are to truly feel into this question of what moves our heart.

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Because the heart is a muscle, right?

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But energetically, it's also a portal to our deepest emotions where our

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most expansive blissful states and our deepest hurts reside side by side, I

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will be explaining in polarity terms, how tuning into this paradox allows us

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to be fully present to our humanness and how it can even lead us to truly loving

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ourselves and others unconditionally.

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How do you locate?

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What moves your heart?

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You will not find it in the open spaces.

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you think you crave or the in between moments where all is plain

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and unperturbed, no, these do not move your heart the way loss does.

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What truly moves.

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You can only be found in what disturbs your everydayness, what touches the

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hollow parts you hide below the surface.

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It is not echoing through the saccharin sounds of uproarious.

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Laughter.

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Or in the banter of your placation, it won't be found above ground where

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things are smooth as untouched, sand, that which moves you reaches

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down into the ravaged depths of your hearts, crevasses, where the Wells

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of your longings, dwell alongside all you haven't dared to grieve yet.

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It is never in plain sight where sunny afternoons full of languid satisfaction

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reside, because what moves you cannot rise from the ashes of things.

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Unburned just as hope cannot console you until you've almost given in

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when you feel truly seen despite your hiding, when you feel truly met.

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Despite unfathomable differences.

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When you feel utterly held in the abyss of your aloneness, when you locate, what

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restores you, what tenderly cradles your brokenness, revealing all the ways you

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have wished to be illumined when you are overtaken by the sheer beauty of

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what could only come from your deepest wounding that.my heart, is how you know

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that you have found what truly moves.

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So when we contemplate this question, Or when I contemplated this question from

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the moon the other night, what it means to be moved to the core of my being, to be

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transported out of the ordinary and into the depths of my heart secret chambers.

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I did not think about pain or suffering as the gateway to get there.

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And so just as I promised, I'm going to give you a little backstory

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about how I came to this question.

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And what happened is I was teaching an online class that

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I offer every month on zoom.

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And it's called be your own guide to the divine.

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And in this class, we gather with a question or an intention for our lives.

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And then we go on a conscious stream journey to bring this inquiry to our

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guides and our allies who then give us the answers we seek, or in my

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case, the question that will lead us to the answers we seek in the form

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of some kind of creative inspiration.

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And then we create together on zoom live.

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And as we're creating, we're kind of exploring and digesting this resource

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through the creative process itself.

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And from doing some kind of creative process, we are able to gain different

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kinds of insight, different levels of insight than our conscious

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logical mind is able to access.

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And because your creativity, just like your imagination is the tool that allows

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you to perceive things intuitively.

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It's really through our imagination that we get insight and it's through

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our creativity that we're able to open that up, that right side of the brain.

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That's really vast that asks these questions that surprise us

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with answers are only our higher selves can access because we're in

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that expansive imaginative zone.

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Where we're pulling in new thoughts and new ideas and new

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ways of approaching old problems.

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And so for me in this journey, I ended up on the moon.

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I wasn't expecting to go to the moon, but that's where I went and

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I saw this giant pyramid and I went inside and it was all empty.

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And I've been there before.

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I've been to this pyramid.

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And at any rate, there was a guide of mine sitting there, all alone in the dark.

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And I sat down in my imagination.

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I sat down in my dream body in front of this guide and I

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was like, so, Hey, what's up?

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What's up?

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What am I doing here?

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Why am I here anyway, because I was expecting to receive

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an image for a painting.

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Normally I paint my dreams and that's, I'm a painter and I love painting.

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And oftentimes, whatever question I'm seeking.

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In this format, I usually get some.

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Animal guide.

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And then I painted it and we talk and I learned from it as I'm

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painting, or I process the energy of whatever it's bringing and or

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whatever my question is for my life through the process of painting.

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But this time I didn't get a painting, I didn't get an image.

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I was just sitting in this empty pyramid across from my

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guide and without communicating.

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Verbally, I understood that he was offering me a different assignment.

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And what he asked me to do was to just contemplate this question

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through writing through a poem.

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And specifically I understood that the instruction involved

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creating this episode from this.

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So the question that he asked me was what moves your heart?

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And I, I didn't know.

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I sat there just staring blankly and into this dark space,

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wondering what moves my heart.

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I don't know.

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And he says, well, go write about it and find out.

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And so that's what I did.

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And this was the poem that came out of that.

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And again, it really surprised me.

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It wasn't what I was expecting, where it took me.

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And I wanted to share that story of how I came to this, because

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I think it's really magical.

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that we can find new ways of receiving information like that.

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And.

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It's not something I would have thought of on my own or thought to contemplate.

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And of course there was greater meaning for my life.

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And , because of the nature of this podcast, this wasn't a question

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that was being offered just to me.

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This was a question that was meant to resonate with you specifically, you

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who are listening to this right now.

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And for whatever reason, this was the medicine that I was being prompted to

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offer for your reflection to try on this dream as your own, and to sit with

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this question and to maybe contemplate.

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How to relate to your own heart in this way, how to sort of rectify these

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opposite ideas of accepting our blocks.

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The path itself to our, to our greatest, knowing that they're not in the way

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of it, that they're actually the way.

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so you may be wondering how, how does this concept.

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Of our heart and the emotional qualities that exist there.

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How does that relate to polarity and what is the positive and negative pole?

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And so I wanted to tie that into.

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Just taking a look at the heart itself to begin with and recognizing that

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the heart itself has a muscle which opens and closes with each heartbeat.

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And in the most literal interpretation, you could say that it is this

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very mechanism of expansion and contraction that moves the heart.

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Right?

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And it's through this opening and closing it through the healing and the breaking

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and the re healing and the re-breaking.

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Of our heart, that we feel alive, that we are alive.

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And this metaphor also relates totally to the polarity principles of the positive

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and negative pole, which are the two opposite charges in our energy system.

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And so your energies comprised of an electromagnetic field that can

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be measured scientifically by the electromagnetic force or charge,

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which emanates from the heart itself.

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And this is the same electromagnetic field that surrounds the planet.

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It's just like that.

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And as you know, the planet has a positive and a negative.

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And north and a south.

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And you could say that at the center of the earth, there's a powerful magnetic

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storm in the very core of the planet.

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And that's what generates this charge.

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And it creates this electromagnetic field.

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It's not unlike the heart of the earth.

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That's pulsing.

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So we are like these miniature planets with this measurable electromagnetic

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field, with a positive and a negative charge and north and south pole.

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But the most important thing in polarity energy balancing

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is actually the neutral pole.

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It's actually.

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Three poles.

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We have a positive, negative, and a neutral poll, which is essential

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in anything electrically related.

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Right.

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You've got to have a neutral poll as well.

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And the neutral poll is really the key when it comes to

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balancing, our energy system.

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Because our emotions, , hold a charge, they might hold a positive charge.

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If it's a really great feeling or it might hold a negative charge, if it's

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a really challenged feeling, right.

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Or a hard feeling.

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So that's one way to look at it.

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And in a polarity session, most of our imbalances show up like a strong charge

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in the field, which could be in either the positive or the negative pole.

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And when we are palpating or feeling into a client's energy system, you could

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just imagine for a moment that say the imbalance was in the positive pole at

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the top of the body, and this could show up like they're having a headache or

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their overwhelming thoughts or heaviness.

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And when we encounter this energy, we don't necessarily want to go.

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Get right in it.

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We don't want to go stand there or place our hands on that person's

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head, or we're just going to end up amplifying the energy because we

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also carry a charge in our own body.

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And so.

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By accentuating their charge with our charge.

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It's going to be agitating, potentially activating for their nervous system.

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And so almost always as a general rule, we want to go to the opposite

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pole of the body in order to open the energy and give it somewhere to go.

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And we don't have to work hard when we get there.

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It's not like we're.

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You know, need to use a lot of pressure to release that physical pressure.

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This we're talking about energy here, but it's very palpable and it's a very

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potent thing when you're aware of it.

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And you're tuned in and you're listening because you can.

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Go and just stand there or maybe make the gentlest contact with their feet.

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And suddenly things will start to clear.

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It will start to regulate.

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The energy will start to cycle in a new way that feels more balanced.

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There'll be a release.

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So there's no digging or pushing or doing or coercing.

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We're just being in a very neutral way with their energy.

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And through this resonance, the energy energy starts to regulate.

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So if you look at this metaphorically, if we want to treat our heart the

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way we would treat a client in a session, Just the way we would sit at

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a client's feet with a neutral presence in order to balance the positive

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pole . For instance, , we can do that.

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We can sit with our own feelings with our own challenges, our own painful truths

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with this same kind of gentle presence.

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Not tormenting ourselves or getting all retraumatized by diving into

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the abyss of pain that we've been ignoring or numbing from.

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But by simply acknowledging and being with it in the most subtle way, that's enough

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to open the pathway and we want to just go ever so gently treating our heart space.

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Like it's a sacred temple knowing.

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That it's this pulsation itself that keeps us alive.

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It's the opening and closing of our energy, as well as the physical

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muscle that allows us to be moved.

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And we're not meant to dwell in one place or the other and one pole or the

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other in only the joy or only the pain.

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Because even though it's true that they.

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Exist on opposite sides of the same pole.

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As in this dualistic perspective, they actually exist on a continuum.

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It's not necessarily just a linear journey.

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And if you even look at the polls on the planet, if you go far enough

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east, eventually you're west.

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If you go far enough, North eventually south.

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And this is a principle of polarity that's been written in the hermetic

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and alchemical texts of old it's.

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It's one of the most profoundly fundamental concepts to grasp in order

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to rectify these opposites that exist within us, because it's only when we

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can actually hold space for these.

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Emotions within us to coexist that , we can actually.

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accept and grow.

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And from this place we can actually tune in and really, truly

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love ourselves unconditionally.

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So when we think of opening the heart or tuning in and really feeling into

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what moves your heart, the mind usually wants to go either to the positive.

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To the places where we feel affinity and expansive love and

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connection and adoration, or to the negative pole the suffering.

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And we might feel sometimes when we touch into our heart, just some sadness.

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Or heaviness.

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And we might think that we have to do something about that.

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Like, oh no, I have a block and I need to change that.

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I need to open my heart up.

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Right.

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We all think we need to open our heart, but I just wanted to share that.

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I don't think.

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That we need to always just go open the heart.

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Those blocks exist for a reason too.

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And that's all part of the compensation of our ability to move through and digest our

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experiences and the energy of our lives.

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And we're not just here to ascend into some pure state of equanimity

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that we're here to be with.

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What is.

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But that's not always so easy to do.

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It's hard sometimes to be with ourselves, but you know, if we don't, if we tune

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out and we disconnect from our deepest emotions or from our negative pole, we

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can't just selectively disconnect.

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Cause we will then lose access to both the positive and the negative

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we can't tune in and not feel our deepest hurts to some extent.

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And it's through that, that we find our most expansive states of ecstasy.

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There's no other way out, but through.

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And I just wanted to bring this episode to a close, with a quote by Brene Brown

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who really eloquently, sums up this whole concept that we've been talking about in

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her Ted talk, the power of vulnerability.

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Brene says "we cannot selectively numb the hard feelings and

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expect to feel only the good one.

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So when we numb those, we, we numb joy and gratitude.

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We numb happiness, and then we are miserable and we're looking for purpose

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and meaning, and then we feel vulnerable.

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So we have to have a couple of beers and a banana nut muffin, and

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it becomes this dangerous cycle"..

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So thank you, Brene for that, because don't, we all just need a banana,

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not muffin every now and again.

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And wouldn't it be better if we could just not numb out

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instead of always going there.

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Right.

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Just rather than always going for the beer and the muffin.

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Could we maybe try to just sit with ourselves in a little bit of neutrality.

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How can we find neutrality and not avoid, or really bypass the challenges

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that are here to offer us these growth opportunities that help us to grow

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beyond our perceived limitations, to learn, to be present with the

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full range of our human experience.

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And if we can do that, I really think then, you know, that's how we know

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that we are fully alive in the moment.

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That's how

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so thank you so much for joining me for this second episode of a lone Traveler's

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Down to the music you're hearing in the background right now,

Amanda Lux: 00:25:50

where I'm harmonizing with myself.

Amanda Lux: 00:25:53

So I really appreciate your support.

Amanda Lux: 00:25:56

Thank you so much for listening.

Amanda Lux: 00:25:58

It is such an honor to be in sacred community.